This post is for 2 specific reasons.
1. It's time I start giving myself a little more credit where credit is due. I have my many, many, MANY faults...trust me. They are ever present in my mind, perhaps too present sometimes. So I've decided I am going to talk about the things I am good at or positive qualities I have. I think part of the reason I do not mention them ever is because I do not like to boast. There is also that part of me that is afraid. I'm afraid that there might be something I think I am good at or is a positive quality I possess that others will disregard and say, "She thinks she's good at that? HA!" Well my mom just told me today that we should live by this motto, "What others think of me is none of my business." So hopefully I can live by that. Sometimes I think I spend 90% of my time not giving one single care to anything anybody thinks about me and then the other 10% trying to convince everyone I am better than what they think of me. Also, I think everyone else should try it with me! What say ye?
2. As I was sitting in church on Sunday it suddenly dawned on me that in no time we will be a family of three. It will no longer be just me and Taylor, but there will always and forever be our little tag along buddy as well. I am completely and happily looking forward to when this time comes, but I know I have things to do before it happens. Once we become three, life will get more complicated. Right now I have the luxury of doing whatever, whenever I want. Sometimes I don't take full advantage. YES I could use that to be selfish, but I've decided I should probably use it more wisely by taking this time to serve others instead. I look around and see other moms with their 2, 3, 4, 5 kids and how hard it can be on them, especially during church to sit quietly, or even to have a nice couple of hours away from their kids. I am good with kids. I love them. And I have an abundance of energy to do things with them that mommies just sometimes don't.
I just want to be more aware of ways that I can help other people through hard times and actually DO something about it. Anyway, we will see how it goes. My mom and sister both just recently got called as Relief Society presidents in their wards. I feel like God is telling me a few things. First off, I have more than FABULOUS girl family members. Two, I need to get a life, maybe make some friends, since neither of them will have time for me anymore. Three, I probably need to serve people more. So for those reasons I should serve. Make others happy, make myself happy, and maybe make some new friends? Haha. We shall see. Loves!
In addition to my 2 specific reasons for writing, I should mention I've thought about going private with this blog. Mostly because I think it's creepy that I do not know WHO is reading my blog. There are a few that I know read it because they talk to me about it, but when I get 70 page views per post and only hear back from like 5 I don't know what to think. Thoughts? K BYE!